You can't NOT create. Whatever your medium is. You get an idea and it pours through you. Words, images, rhythm. I don't have to "think" of what to say, the words just arrive. I'm not trying, I AM BEING.
Some days awakening feels like energy coursing through my veins. Not a calm, pleasant energizing energy. A buzzing, uncomfortable electrical current. I feel it in my legs, restlessness. I feel it buzzing on the soles of my feet. I feel it at my back, at the top of my ears, on the underside of my skull. It is everywhere. It's as if the sheath within my physical body, directly under the skin, is being constantly subjected to electrical shock. I itch under the skin. A fire on the inside.
Sometimes, my chakras come alive and the subtle energy beneath my chakras dance. For days, I'll feel a constant fluttering in my solar plexus. I'll feel deep calm and presence in my heart and then it will be ripped open with visceral pain. I'll get an extreme sense of nausea in my throat, but not because I'm nauseous. Because I'm speaking my truth. Because in a past incarnation, I was probably killed for speaking this truth. And so, while my mind in this life says, SPEAK, SPEAK YOU MUST SPEAK! My energy remembers, and it says, we were harmed, this isn't safe! But I speak and I heal and the nausea comes and goes.
I wake up and instead of getting ready, taking a shower and starting the day "properly," I stay in my wild sleep state. In my see-through, floor length slip, unbrushed hair, with tea and divine guidance as my only nourishment, an inability to tear myself away from writing.
In these moments. I am stripped to the core. Everything feels right. I am reminded that reality as we know it is not delineated by the five senses.
I don't know more than you.
I'm just here to share what's being awakened within me so that you can remember what is to be awakened within you, so that you can remind me is to be awakened within me. The Goddess is just a reflection in all of us.
What's your fire? Where are you burning? What want's to be revealed? What is speaking to you beneath the skin? What do you feel on the INSIDE, under the illusion of your body? WHAT IS IN YOUR HEART?